I See You . . .

I had a few of my friends who either couldn't see the video interview or couldn't hear it so I took A LOT OF TIME - to type it out word for word. Please, if I've made a mistake, please correct me via a comment so that I can fix it. Thanks - Enjoy!

Interviewer: . . a sense of what you've ended up creating? (sorry, I really couldn't get exactly what he asked, but the rest should be pretty accurate)

Gerard: I think so, every country we hit we've seen a giant culture impact in every single country we've gone to and it's because of the black parade and it's kinda how it's been. It's been saying that society in that country, it's been say it to every country we've gone to so, um, that's the biggest reward I guess it's like stepping off of plane and being like, wow, this is representing a huge impact here you know.

Bob: And there's places that we have never been before too and it's places that you think, you make a record you know in Los Angels or New York or where ever and then so far away there's people that really understand what we created in there and really get it and enjoy it and we see stuff like people were putting together parades before shows and they do a lot of extra stuff that that's just how much they like it and that's really good to see.

Interviewer: Yes, a lot of people would argue that kids these days especially with the kind of music their listening to are in search of something greater than themselves perhaps?

Gerard: I think they're really just searching for something that has a lot of thought put into it, um, a lot of sencerity and a lot of just listenable value as opposed to records that are just have like a couple singles, you know. And I think there's been a desire for 'THE ALBUM'  to kind of make a come back in a big way for while and a lot of people, even over the last years have made great entire albums and it's a shame for some of them never get to see the light of day but we got very lucky with the black parade. And people listen to it front to back that why we can play the black parade live from front to back, so.

Interviewer: Started out speaking to I guess a generation of misfits and I see more and more kids like you're talking about being something greater than themselves. A lot of kids seems to be lost these days too.

Gerard: I think it didn't so much speak to the misfits as it just spoke to the youth in a certain way because a lot of these kids were really young when 9/11 happened now and I don't even know if a lot of people realize the phycological effect of that to some of the youth you know but these are going to be parents one day. And to kind of something so tragic happen that you never thought possible and then realize that you then have to maybe one day raise a child in that, I think there's a certain kind of terror that comes with that and I think we're coming from that same place and I think that's why it resignated with it so I'm not sure, maybe everybody felt like an outsider because they weren't talking about it with each other but I think, a, speaking a lot more than just outsiders, so.

Interviewer: You guys are into the age now or at least a point in your life where I imagine you must think about that kind of thing I mean raising children or I imagine teaching your children life lessons. Do you think about that?

Gerard: Ah, it's hard, you know, I mean I just turned 30 -

Interviewer: Was that a big deal for you?

Gerard: Yeah, I mean I like getting older, I think it means you learn more, so, um, but I still have yet to think about children, you know. I guess I never saw it, I guess I had a certain kind of attitude when we started the band and children really didn't fall into that. I guess, ah, I didn't see much hope when I started the band but now I see a tone of it, so, I guess I have to revisit that topic, you know. How about you, Bob?

Bob: I personally think that everyone in this band is gonna have kids because I do but you have to bring people in when the time is right and bringing somebody into the world when we're doing a tour and we're so involved in something like this it's like, it's not right for them and it's not right for your family. I think further down the road is when people are really gonna start concentrating on taking this, taking that to like being a family. It's gonna be really weird but it'll be cool.

Break - don't know what was asked but here was Gee's response.

Gerard: Now a days I just look like my dad when I wakeup. My hair kinda, my dad kinda looks a lot like me, right and his hair is kinda always pushed back and I always have my hair down but in the morning it's always back and I look just like my dad. I find myself exhaling very heavily like my dad from frustration occasionally going *deep sigh* that's one of my dad things.

Bob: That's when he starts smashing garbage cans over valet guys head, so. His dad has a little temper.

Gerard: My dad's got a temper. He's the sweetest dude in the world but -

Bob: He's also scariest dude in the world.

Gerard: He can be pretty scary so.

Interviewer: Did you think about when you were younger, did you think about kind of the man you wanted to become when you were older and are you becoming that person?

Gerard: I think I was afraid of becoming nothing and that was the biggest fear so I've gotten past that. Now I feel that I have to not only become something, I have to become very good person. Like the best person I can be and that requires a lot more work I found out than just simply being successful, so. How you feel about that, Bob?

Bob: I've always just wanted to be happy in what I did and I wasn't for a while and I think everyone finds a thing eventually whether it's like way down the road or for some people it happens really early in their life and it sounds really wierd and it sounds kinda like one of those awe moments like when I got to play in this band and that's kinda when I was happy with what I was doing. Thanks, Buddy, *pats Gee on the back* Thanks.

Gerard: No problem. *chuckles*

Interviewer: The environment in this band seems so much different from you than the first time I spoke to you guys about three years ago. What has lead up to that?

Gerard: I think a lot of growing up, learning to become better, more mature people, learning to truly value what you do because you find out very hard. I think a lot of that, I think of say that no matter how hard my life gets, no matter how awesome it could be very difficult and we all deserve to be happy with our lives, so, um, no complaining and no getting bummed out on stuff that out of your control and a lot of growing up, basically.

Interviewer: So this band especially early on was about kind of coping. Do you find that it is easier individually without the band to kind of cope on your own at this point in your lives?

Gerard: Yeah.

Bob: I think it is but this is still a big part for me. Like, doing this makes everything that would be a big deal and really hard to deal with a lot easier now and it's, like you said, we've grown up a lot so we've learned a lot of things that you learn when you grow up. But we still look forward to doing this everyday and being able to playing a show everyday and that really helps us a lot still.

Interviewer: So much of this band, from what I've learned talking about you over the years is, it's kind of a family and I know that you really have a tight connection with your brother and I imagine, does this band look different even though he's gone for a short period of time?

Gerard: It does and it doesn't I mean like, you know, for us his presence is missed. For the fans it's greatly missed, you know, and part of the point of this band though is that we're supposed to pick up and keep going no matter what life throws at you.

Interviewer: You know, It's easy to say that, but -

Gerard: It's easy to say it and then executing it isn't as hard but luckily the Mikey situation is one that actually isn't a situation and it's not a dramatic thing so it's like, this is an easy thank god it's just this, thank god it's like, oh well he just wants to start a life. And that's what we wanted for him so this actually wasn't even his thing. He didn't really come to us and say I want to start a life. We're like, you know what? Give the dude a break. he can still keep rolling and, you know, he can be happy like he deserves to be and start a life, so.

Interviewer: There was a point where he almost left the band during the making of the black parade as well, didn't he?

Gerard: No, That was never anything that happened. He just became - he had a battle with depression when we were at the house and we were in an extremely alienated situation and he found it very difficult to cope and what he had done was he just kind of moved out of that house and that house was source of a lot of alienation for us, you know and I don't think he was readily equiped to deal with that alienation.

Interviewer: It's very interesting you bring that up because some people don't cope well with the idea of being alone or being isolated. Some people - you learn the most about yourself when you're on your own.

Gerard: You do but yet sometimes like, you know, this band has a way of self-imposing some very difficult situations on to itself just to get the best results and sometimes it's not so healthy and I think that's what we're learning now. I think next time we make a record it'll probably be in a much more comfortable environment.

Interviewer: The Bahamas?

Gerard: Something like that. You know what I mean, right?

Interviewer: Do you think about that? Do you think about what you want this to become ten years from now?

Gerard: No. I think about the moment and the next record, maybe. I don't think about the ten years. I think, - yeah.

Bob: The only thing I think for ten years is not exactly what we'll be doing but if we're still doing this that it's gonna be something good still something meaningful still. That's the only really way down the line thing we think about.

Gerard: Right, he has a really great point. I mean the band in a lot of ways doesn't necessarily always have to be about the band. You know what I mean, so like ten years from now we can not be in the band at all. We could be doing something meaningful. And I think that's the point. Like, this band gave us an avenue to become meaningful people that contributed something and tried to help and to make a difference and I think in ten years that's where I still see us. If it means still being in a band then that awesome. If it means not being in a band, that's awesome too.

Interviewer: Do you ever think about what the end of My Chemical Romance - what it might look like?

Gerard: I don't know.

Interviewer: For each of you?

Bob: You know what, like the end of this band will be, I think, will be either the time maybe we finish a record or we finish a tour and we'll know that it's time, you know and you'll just know that it's time to wrap it up and not carry it out just to do it. Or it's gonna be something huge like, I don't know, like the stage explodes or something wierd because we always do really dumb stuff on stage.

Gerard: We're a very self-aware band so I think when the end - I think a lot of people in bands maybe sometimes will kind of fools themselves and not be honest or just do it for the wrong reasons in which case you can have a band forever if your doing it for the money. But we don't so I think we're so self-aware that I think we can very easily just one day, you know, next record, two records, whenever just feel like, yeah this is gonna be it because we're done saying what we had to say. Once we run out of stuff to say that's the time to go home.

Interviewer: So what you're saying is to be self-aware is kind of knowing yourself. Do you reach a point - was there a moment for each of you where you just kind of knew everything was going to be okay?

Gerard: I don't know.

Bob: I don't think I know that everything's going to be - this is really hard - I mean like right now things are okay. We're gonna have stuff that comes up. Big stuff, small stuff. We're just really comfortable where we're at. We're comfortable with what we're doing right now and comfortable with what we're doing is right us and for music and for the people that like this band.

Interviewer: Cool - thanks for your time.

Now?

Okay, there are several ways I can do this. I'm gonna try the fast version because I've got a lot to say.

Saturday, May 5, 2007, 6:30am - Wokeup, got ready, left by 8:45am


Right before we got there, I saw something I wasn't expecting.


We arrived at Giant Stadium at 10:15am and got a really good parking spot. Yay!

Waited in a very long ass-line but it moved fairly quickly.

No one said a damn thing about cameras. Woo-Hoo!

Okay, here we go!

After Edward and I got inside, we went straight to Photo Finish Records to pickup my Buzznet Bracelets to give out to the crowd.

At first I was a bit nervous about going up to strangers and handing them something they knew nothing about but after a while, it got easy and became a lot of fun!


After I ran out of bracelets, we decided to cruise around the crowd and wow! Everyone was so different! There were all kinds of people there. There were whole families and that was really awesome to see! There was even older people there to enjoy the shows. How awesome is that?

I got my picture taken with a whale,


I got a free free hug! (For you, Christine!)



And I even got to hangout with my good friend and partner in crime, ravenblackhardt!

The Beekeepers of Buzznet!

And I also met my good friend, Mike, who I originally met at the Philly show.


Okay, so Raven was a Busy-Busy-Busy Bee. First she had to get her Buzznet Bracelets at Photo Finish Records and guess who was there:

Awesomeness! DJ Ross Star is probably one of the most friendliest people I've ever met. You rock, Man!

Besides meeting DJ Ross Star we also got to meet Hey Chris! Also, one of the most friendliest people I've ever met. I also have to admit - I had no idea how handsome he was untill I saw him in person.


Okay, performances I saw:

I saw Valencia




I saw Say Anything




I saw New Found Glory




I saw Hellogoodbye - Edward and I really liked this band.





I saw . . . gee, who am I missing . . .

THE BLACK PARADE AKA MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!



The rest of the pictures are in the Bamboozle 2007 photo gallery on my page.

Okay, real quick because I just heard that the show tonight in Portland, Maine was canceled - yes, they performed at Bamboozle, obviously. But they were not well! Gerard explained that Bob, Ray and Matt along with half their crew weren't just poisoned - they got salmonella poisoning, which is extremely serious. As a matter of fact they still weren't well that night but played anyway. They sounded absolutely perfect but you could tell by Ray's stage presence that he was not doing good. He mostly stayed in one place and didn't smile at all.

So please, don't be mad at My Chemical Romance for cancelling their shows. They need to get better before going on. Otherwise, they're going to have some really big health issues.

But on a lighter note, here's what Gerard had to say:

"You can drown us, you can choke us, and you can call us every name in the book. You can fucking poison us. But we will not stop!"

Yay Gee!

Now, how I got my pictures at the show.

Okay, Edward, Raven and I arrived at the main stage at 5:00pm and waited to the right of the stage. We were there for 4 hours. In that time, we barely moved at all. When MCR came on, something in me just snapped. I saw how crowded it was and all the people and . . . I just fucking lost it. I became one of them! I wanted to be in the front so bad, I was starting to salavate! So, I abandoned my safe place and joined in the chaos around me. It was hot - it was sweaty - and I loved it! I pushed and shoved my way towards center stage, about 2-3 rows of people back and I saw My Chemical Romance - granted, I'm only 5 feet tall so it was hard at times but I put my fucking camera up in the air and took as many pictures as I possibly could in hopes that I would get a few good ones and I did as you can see from up above. I got knocked in the head a lot but I never fell - Yeah, Bitch! I was tough! No way I was gonna let that shit happen. Oh, I also felt my neck crack a few times but I was still good! Damn! I can't stop smiling. I've never experienced anything like that before. Now I understand why people are so addicted to going to shows like that! I want to so do it again!

When it was all over, I was smelly, sticky, sweaty, my hair was completely drenched, my makeup was a complete mess, I was used and bruised - but on cloud nine. Now it was time to go find my husband, who I lost in the crowd. We had a 'meet' spot just incase of something like that happening. I also had to find Raven because I had something that belong to her.

Well if you thought, I had a good time, you should hear my hubby (goldbrickdreams.buzznet.com). He had a fucking blast! Even that he dropped his glasses and one of his lenses was missing, he was feeling pretty damn good!

Okay so it was time to go and who should I see handing out buttons - Jeff and Sef from Your Favorite Enemies!!! Incase you don't know who they are, you should. Go click on 'Your Favorite Enemies' Link on my page to check them out!

Anyways, a good friend of mine who loves YFE's has been going through a rough patch. So I ran up to them and introduced myself and told them about my friend. So, they posed for this picture - just for her!


Then I got my own picture with them. It wasn't until a little later that I realized that I probably looked and smelled really funky  - sorry, guys. And, as you can see, I was right.

I also got sunburned pretty bad. You know, even though people kept telling me about the importance of sunblock and water, it doesn't really hit you until you're in that position. Holy Shit!

On the way home we stopped at Clinton's Station Diner, which I so recommend to anyone in the area or visiting the area. The best after show food ever!

So there it is. Hope you all enjoyed reading about my experience at Bamboozle. Can't wait to do it again! I you have any questions, just let me know!

xoxo,
Millie
Beekeeper

P.S. Oh! I wanted to share one more thing with you . . .

Yeah, aren't you glad you don't work there?